I can’t wait till I feel better so I can start running again.

I can’t wait till I feel better so I can start running again.

I can’t wait till I feel better so I can start running again.

God, will my ears throat and sinuses ever stop hurting??? I’ve been in bed just tearing up from all the pain. I want to throw up. Ugh. Fuckkkkk.

I don’t understand why my whole life is about what everyone else wants. What about what I want? Maybe I don’t want to be alone, maybe I want to live my life with someone….but not just anyone. I feel like I’ve been divorced. I know….or I’m choosing to believe that one day my time will come and I will love someone who will love me enough to not constantly only think of themselves….and will not pretend to care about me, and then pull the bait and switch, but actually genuinely care about me.

Sometimes I
want to do something amazing
with the rest of my life, but I don’t know what. I guess that’s pretty much how everyone feels.